Sort this out?

Im ok,but you're fucked up.And,and you,and everybody else who's not like me,including me,when i'm not like i want to be.i'm fucked too,nobody is okay.
Sometimes when i think about all the suffering,greed,selfishness,stupidity and ignorance that i perceived in people,i get freakinn pissed.Oh,please don't make me curse.So much suffering seems unnecessary,easily avoidable.People seem to lack vision,to not see the big picture,to not see that their actions and lifestyles affects on people.It's very easy to get angry though.Often,i have started assuming,blaming,condemning and attacking both mentally and verbally.TRUE NONSENSE,aku bilang kau.

When i pull out from there,i was brave,strong adventurer with hope in my soul and a song in my breast.by the time i arrived,i was gibbering wreck.That place had changed since my last visit just a month before.when i used it for an interview,i'd been a tourist.It sights,its sounds,tempo smells,idiosyncrasies,delays,anonymity-everything was quirky and exciting.Makkkkkkkkk oi.

This time was different.This time was for real.People moved to a rhythm i could'nt follow.i felt like a new girl at the front of a ballet class in a mirrored room.As the escalator took me depper,and deeper down,a great heaviness expanded in my chest as if i was drowning from the inside.I tried to ignore my feelings and adopt the air of a seasoned traveller,after all,i made the journey there like a million times.I knew exactly where i was going whatttt.How hard could it be,aku berbual sendiri suay.

As i shut the front door behind her,took a long deep breath and sett off.i tried not to hear in my head the conversation that i knew they would be having now about my intentions towards them.i tried to concentrate on my walk sudah.i love walking.it reminded me connected to the earth,a living,breathing masterpiece of functional perfection,an act of GOd that proved miracles really did exist,a monument to-

"Who's got a face like a slapped arse then?!"came a sudden voice lah cibaii.

Fuck

Salvador Izyan Dali,fuck.
LASALLECollegeofTheARTS,fuck.
I fucking don't do links.

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History

November 2009
December 2009